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| - "Miss Misery"Well, I have accepted a job in Orlando, Florida. I will be working with Relevant Media Group. For those who might be familiar with it, they create Relevant Magazine, which is a really great thing. Last week they flew me down for an interview and everything just felt good. Last night I accepted the job and will probably start working in a month or so.
It's crazy man. My thoughts on everything are really across the board. But mostly I feel excited and ready. The idea of setting out on this adventure just makes me smile. I will, however, miss so many things. Cincinnati is all I have known for 24 years. Now in a few weeks I am moving to a city... a state, where I really don't know anyone. As much as that is terrifying, it is equally exciting and even more refreshing.
I wish I had more words to say, but I just don't. I am tired right now and I want to crawl in bed and watch a few episodes of Arrested Development. More to come soon. | | |
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First of all, I am so addicted to Copeland right now. Homeboy's voice is amazing. Gosh I'd really like to go into some spiritual stuff. It's almost like it is too much to dive into. Where do I begin? I have said it before but man I just feel very strongly like we (at least in the U.S.) are on the verge of something. A new kind of Christianity if you will. A kind of faith that is no longer judgmental, condascending, right-wing-conservative-I-support-any-Republican-and-things-like-global-warming-and-anti/war-sentiment-is-liberal-bullcrap, this-is-the-way-it-is-and-dang-it-you-better-believe-it-too. Know what I mean? What really matters anyway? Living a life like Jesus. What a rebel and a lover! Homeboy was a hippie. All about love and peace and all that stuff. I dig that. S'all about love baby. But what do I know. About the only thing I know for certain anymore is that I just really don't know. One thing I do know is that as much as the world fights and disagrees about and kills in the name of Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, Bin Laden, yo mama, one thing still seems universal in all of it. There is still a huge thing that me, the Pope, the Dalai Lama, some dude walking around with an AK-47 in Pakistan have in common––love. Deep down at the core I believe that we all want to be loved. It seems to be the only thing on this Earth that every person has in common. God is love. I think that might be in the Bible somewhere. The quest continues.
Well listen, if y'all aren't busy come out to Liberty Heights Church tomorrow night at 9:00 pm. It's on Princeton Road in Liberty Township. I am playing there. Just a little guitar. Maybe a lil bass. Maybe a lil percussion. Gonna do some originals and some covers. Gonna be a good time.
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Tonight is probably one of the most discouraging nights I have had in a long time. The night seems to bring out this crazy reflective side in me. I sit here on the couch, stare at reruns of Jay Leno and start to become discouraged and lonely. I start to think about the past. Relationships. Mistakes I have made. I start remembering times when I felt small. Sometimes my feelings almost turn into desperation. Desperate for something, I don't even really know what. What is this feeling inside of me? This desire that can never be quenched. It's like a ship at sea that will never reach the shore. It's interesting too, the way your mind will distract itself from emotional pain.
It's kind of odd too, this graduating thing. You gear up 4 or 5 years to do it and once you do it, it seems like all you want to do is be a freshman again.
It's a Radiohead kind of night.
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| - "Ghost"
well i put some songs of mine on the ol' world wide web. gonna try to keep putting songs up that i am in the process of recording very ghetto-ly in my bedroom. check it out:
www.myspace.com/chrishendrixsonmusic
y'all should come to kidd coffee on apr 15. gonna be a good time.
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| - "Pages Yet To Be Written"
Well I am in Nashville right now. I can't decide if I really like Nashville or really don't. It's odd. Sometimes I think, "Man I want to move down here!" and other times I think, "I could never live here." Interesting I tell you. So what's new in my life? I don't know. I think being on the brink of graduating college scares me a lot. I don't want to grow up. Do I really have to? I am in such a soul searching phase right now. Trying to find my place. Where do I fit in, in this crazy world. I am almost 24. I really really hate the sound of that. I feel like I'm 18. I am just tired of being so dang fickle in regards to love, my dreams and passions, my happiness, etc. Sometimes I wonder if things here have just gotten so stale in my life. Sometimes I crave a new beginning. My pursuits of things just fall through sometimes and I really have a hard time dealing with that. I am a perfectionist (with some things) and it's just hard on the heart to pursue something that has some strong emotional pull on it (whether it be women or dreams, etc.) and have it fail, or appear to fail.
Gosh I am a passionate person. The downfall to it is that my sadness is just as passionate as my happiness.
I know, I know, I know
that I don't know, I don't know
and I'm scared, I'm scared
I'm scared of being alone
So find me here and bring me back
home.
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